Please allow me to re-introduce myself.
I’m Katie. It’s been a while and you probably don’t remember me.
Do you know just HOW LONG I have been thinking about sitting in front of this computer and attempting to jot something down?
“What’s held me back?” you ask.
Darn good question. I’ve thought about that more than I can articulate.
But one thing kept drawing me back here, until I finally obeyed.
Your story. Your struggles. Your questions. Your doubts. Your friendship.
At 43 years of age, if I have learned anything, it’s that we are meant for community. We need each other. We need honest, transparent friends who will walk along beside of us through the horrific, the beautiful and the seemingly impossible. We won’t always understand but we can always listen. We don’t always have to share advice but we can always love. We don’t always have to attempt to explain it away but we can always be there. Amen?
I need to admit something.
I’m a chronic apologizer. But I get it honestly. Ask anyone who knows my mom. And her mom. It’s genetic. Which means I have to work doubly hard to overcome. Just like cellulite. 😉
BUT, I’m sorry…
Sorry that I can’t be completely sure of the direction this blog will take in the coming months. I just know I have missed sharing. Listening. Walking with you. So, I’m here. But I may need to warn you that perhaps this season in my life is a tad bit deeper/more serious than you prefer. I may sound a bit heavy at times. But that’s where I am. And for those of you that know me personally, you know that I don’t hide my feelings very well.
So, please know that I understand if you choose to skip right over me in the ole’ INBOX. I so get it! There are days you just need something light and funny! But for those of you that may be struggling or in your own heavy place, I get you. And more than anything, I want to be your walking buddy. I want to encourage you (and me) to keep going. Each day, let’s choose to lace up those shoes and double-knot those laces. Let’s forge ahead, even when it feels difficult or downright impossible. When you get blisters, I’ll hand you the moleskin and vice-versa. We’re in this together. And even more than that, HE IS right in our midst.
Despite our feelings. Despite our emotions. Despite our questions. Our doubts. Our pain.
And don’t tell me (or let me tell you) that a loving God wouldn’t allow us to hurt or have hardship. Because I have a freshman in college who has been broker than dirt at times this year. We have always (and will always) provide what he needs, but giving him everything he wants and asks for is not always beneficial. Sometimes, he understands. Sometimes not.
You and I are just children. We’re limited.
We can’t always understand the perspective of our parent (with infinite wisdom) who loves us so much that sometimes (actually most of the time) our hearts are much more important to Him than our comfort and happiness. His good and our good are very different.
I am learning this. Oh, yes I am.
Thanks for walking with me. I look forward to us getting back to hitting the pavement together!