A lot has happened since my last post 6 weeks ago. I have so missed you guys. And for those of you who reached out to check on me, a heartfelt thank you.
Sometimes, you just need a TIME OUT.
You know when the game of life gets intense and you just need that time with your coach to regroup? Yep. That’s where I’ve been.
I have had emotions to process, including my oldest graduating from High School and facing the reality that our home dynamics are preparing to change. And my sweet daughter being faced with challenges, beyond her control, that produced great disappointment in her life. My husband being hit in the face with a fast baseball, breaking his jaw in half in 2 places-requiring surgery. And my ongoing acceptance of how a chronic disease affects my day-to-day life. Those new realities are beginning to sink in after being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis 6 months ago. I tried to play brave. But then somewhat collapsed after living out these new realities in my own strength and seeing I was completely incapable.
I asked the coach if I could just sit the bench for a while. I have simply grown to love His compassion for His players….as He lovingly looked at me and said,
“Come with me by yourself to a quiet place and get some rest.” ~Mark 6:31
I knew it was from Him because there was no guilt. No regret. No shame.
Dishes have piled high in the sink, laundry has covered the floor, beds remain unmade, bathrooms dirty, meals have consisted of take out, and pajamas have been my outfit of choice. And it’s ok.
I’m starting to get my fight back and the desire to get back in the game is starting to resurface.
So to you, my dear friends, may I encourage you if you find yourself in this place? Time outs are a part of the game of life. There will be times of intense play, well-thought out game plans, exciting over-times, and amazingly well-executed strategies. But then there are also times when you need to regroup. To rest. Hydrate yourself with the Living Water. And even sit the bench if you need to. Your coach knows His players and He knows when to put you back in the game. Trust Him.